Thinking back to 2006, I can name so many obstacles that I have overcome. It's a miracle how much I have changed physically. Once, ridden with cancer, I couldn't even turn over in my bed. I called a friend to come and help me. I became pregnant twice with two amazing, healthy, angels. Physically weak and heavy, more friends encouraged me to move. Now strong and healthy, I try to encourage others. Change is so evident.
But, mentally, there is much more to work on. My fear is too strong, as I think about walking into that Dr. office today and hearing what he has to say...
I am such a hyprocrite. I preach God's plan to everyone as I tell them my life story in the first few minutes we meet. Then, so quickly I fall to pieces when reality smacks me in the face.
As I was putting on my face, trying to get my shaking hand to mascara my eyelashes, I became disgusted. What do I fear? I know that whatever the plan is, I am His. I am loved.
Mandissa's song plays in my head...."Overcomer". Thoughts of this day fill my head.